Weakness

Topics are reducing.
between she and me.
But nothing can be done cos we are far distance away...
the most words we are talking now is "I love u" or "miss you so much"
seems to be so powerless...
I asked her: why do you love me so? what kind of points do you find on me?
She said that i am not oily, i love her so much and i get along with her by my heart, i am smart and so on. but she also said, she feels that i am too conservative.
Yes of course i know that. i keeped the situation for more than a year. the hope cannot been seen. i feel sad and sorry.
This is my major weakness.
From my childhood, i am just like this. scary, unconfident, don't posses the courage like a man. i was teased when i was in primary school. i often drop a brick. Even now, till now...
I always feel that i am stupid and slowness. and this made me being conservative.
I am eager to change but don't know how.
i noticed that a friend of me said on QQ: find your weakness and make them as your excellence. do it now.
yeah, i think i will need a lifetime to achieve this.